Allyinspires
hello hello hello!
it’s end-of-junior-year ally speaking now. spring quarter has just launched into action at UCLA, and i’m at it again with the full courseload: 3 econ courses and an art history course 🙂
i’m ready to close off this year strong, but also with a renewed sense of appreciation for everything I brought with me into college, not just the things that I’m taking out of college.
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Walking through the Rockefeller center and financial district, with pink cheeks bitten by the cold. Hair and shoulders wrapped in a scarf- and each step taken with determination and purpose.
This was the New York in my younger mind, the New York I prayed for when I submitted my early decision application to NYU Stern three years ago. When I visited over Manhattan for the second time this summer, this rampant fancy of my past days became something more subtle yet more solid. I walked through the Columbia campus with my best friend from high school who had just transferred to the university; I was in her current reality, seeing myself in the corner of my eye, walking by with notebooks in hand and plaid skirt on hips. Movies at Times Square at midnight. Churches in the rain. Nights in the dorms and waking up to a beautiful view of Upper Manhattan just outside Neta’s window, and thus starting my day with an exuberant smile.
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summer was:
living in an apartment for the first time, learning to consistently cook for myself
breaking up with the guy i had dated since 8 weeks into college
sunny and lonely in west los angeles
writing in my journal, complaining to myself on those nights that I felt like I wasn’t where I wanted to be
picking up my phone and pulling up your contact, but never sending a message- because it was hard but I knew I needed to push through the challenge to gain clarity
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continuing with the bullet journal// neta visits from east coast// tried out for show me the money 6//reading more books//started working for a chinese digital livestream company//cramming for finals!!!
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