my friends and I rented a mansion in palm springs for spring break, crammed all of each other into cars and had a blast of a weekend (check the vlog xoxo)
but (for ally at least), no sunny, lazy haze vacation comes without some sudden contemplation and perhaps a little confusion
when it comes to travel// i tend to like to trek:
sprawling cities
historical landmarks
developing areas (don’t ask me why)
anything busy and bustling (ny, shanghai….)
welcome now to a weekend of the total opposite- lounging by the pool, taco prep kits, and handfuls of denim, white, and blue stripes. there is nothing to remind you of worries as you day sip on jungle juice under the subtle shade of socal’s infamous palm trees. oh, and your friends are so lit. life is good bruh.
let’s just say I had a little bit of a mental crisis some point this trip. upon flushing the toilet, I looked around to see mint green bathroom walls and white wicker- how vacation-y. walked out into my room, and looked out the window to see my friends lying in pool toys downstairs in the yard. and then suddenly, this sense of displacement just struck me…
like how did I end up here, paying to forget the world and to drown myself in the fun and the indulgences that I can afford with my (parents) entitled money!! (very strange thought for a slightly under some influence girl of 20 to have mid vacation rager) but here we all are too, as a society, indulging in the very things that are conditioned to make us forget. so many things in this world are set up to blind us and keep us away from engaging in real problems. a pair of cherry-tinted glasses is popped in front of our eyes, and without knowing, our scope of the world and our potentials to make an impact is shifted. with money and desire, we are the ideal props that fall perfectly into the conforms of a consumerist and indoctrinated society.
those who are better off: we are persuaded not to see the world as ugly and in need, but instead as a beautiful place full of vacations, luxury, superheroes, and happy endings, all available to us if we only reach out a finger. it’s fine really, but here i was again accidentally swallowing the red pill instead of drowning in a pool of blue. #oops
but anyway, please keep some of these thoughts in mind as you go along your days and enjoy my outfit pics. most of the time I am yet another misguided yet ambitious cog in the system. #babysteps
